I am not sure why i am writing, i am just right now confused, what to do? what not to ? trying to hold myself, taking sleeping pills for insomnia, kind of overdosing it, and i feel that yes now i have terribly f***ed myself.
But i want to get rid of it, get rid of everything that is killing me, i want to live life, and cherish it , which i am failing to do so, i want to make myself better again, and from now on i promise myself to try to work hard, and start mending whats broken, i know it wont fix it a day , nor even in a week, it will take months, may be a year or two, but i dont have to give up, i have a dream and i have to accomplish it
and from now on i am starting it with a determination that this time i wont QUIT.
